So lately I've been trying to figure out the best way to improve my art, all the while frustrating myself with why my linework looks so simple and primitive and what to use to figure out how to get my mind's eye focused. Basically, when I draw I have no clue what the end result looks like, I come to a complete blank. It's so weird because I day dream constantly about different things and those images are vivid. But when the time comes to put pencil to paper (or pen tool to tablet), I get diddley squat.

So in my logical, programmer/math oriented brain, I ask myself a series of verbal questions and get a verbal result that starts me drawing, and then semantically putting together pieces of that puzzle using techniques and tools that I've learned, rather than feeling the pose/character etc.. I have searched EVERY avenue (books, courses, psychology, art buddies) to find an answer to my problem and I can't find an answer. I keep practicing, I keep studying photos and manga and comics and trying to learn why things do and don't work visually, but that just seems to get me better technique, but it doesn't move my art past the sublime, it doesn't live like other artists work who can visualize and feel their poses and draw it as if they were in the picture. And that's what I need, to be immersed in what I'm trying to create completely and I haven't been able to reach that point. Frankly I'm not sure if I'll ever reach it, and that is depressing. It's the point where you figure, if I can't make great art then why am I bothering to do this?

So that's where I am, busy in RL with my job, get to practice/draw maybe an hour or 2 a night. So what do I practice/draw/study to solve my problem? Do I go back to figure drawing studios? Do I see a psychiatrist? Do I give up and become a short order cook? I dunno anymore :/